Things I Have To Accept About Myself

One of my friends wrote a blog which pretty much talked about things she's come to accept about herself in Random Ramblings (I should have got my ish trademarked) and I thought it was pretty cool so since I'm up late I'll do that right now.

• Everyone isn't going to like me.  I'm 22 years old and still dealing with the issue of wanting everyone to like me to some extent.  I know that I have a pretty strong personality so it isn't going to mesh with everyone.
• I have a negative view of myself at times which isn't good.  I didn't even notice it until I was with two of my past roommates and I said something and my friend said, "Why are you so hard on yourself?"  This mainly applies to how I view myself in regards to attractiveness.  In my mind I'm still the 13 year old from Morgan Road Middle School that was picked on for my acne and being a "lame."  
• I will never be a twerk master in reality, but in my imaginary world I can run with the best of them.
• I often seek appreciation for the things that I do and when I don't get it I kind of lose motivation.  I do things because I want to make stuff better by offering my help, but when I don't receive a simple "thanks" I get kind of down.
• I'm a quiet person, but I'm very outspoken.
• I like being alone or hanging out in groups no bigger than three or four.  Too many people tire me out and make me feel overwhelmed.  
• I keep a lot of things to myself instead of letting others know because I don't want to feel like I'm bothering people.  The funny thing is I'm always the person who offers an ear for listening when people need it.
• I'll never be a "cool" kid.
• I'll never have long curly/wavy hair, but its fine.
• Even though I say I never want to dance with anybody at parties deep down inside I really do want someone to ask me to dance.  It kind of sends the message to me that someone found me attractive so when nobody approaches me I think something must be wrong with me.
• I look mean as hell and that will never change.
• I'm bossy.
• My skin will never look as clear or smooth as Gabrielle Union.
• I'm cheap.
• I'm afraid to ask for things.  (My Dad would find this humorous as he always says this to me.)
• I can't be perfect.
• I have an extremely hard time trusting people and this comes from childhood.
• I can easily go from happy to sad or depressed by thinking of old memories that I'm ashamed of.
• I overthink things.

Old photo from the Summer of 2010